A call

It happened!! Today I got a call about having 2 children. I have been waiting for so long and now I am in a quandry!!! What to do....

I decided to become a carer as I can see the huge need for it. All children have the right to feel safe, have all of their basic needs met and to be cared for, loved and given every opportunity in life... and I believe this with my whole heart. Being a school teacher I see the need for it every day. My parents were carers while I was a child and I saw the difference it could make in those childrens lives. So its a difficult situation I now find myself in as to do or not to do.

You see the problem is that I am worried that I may not be a good fit for the children. I am worried that I cannot provide for their difficult needs that I am aware of and obviously can't share. Is it fair for them to take them when I know there is a good chance that I cannot do this for them on my own. Given the situation I am thinking that perhaps they need a stable couple and especially a male influence (which I can't provide). But on the other hand I am thinking how selfish to not give them a chance and to say its too hard. Culturally things could prove to be a huge problem too. Aargh if only my powers to foresee the future were working.

Other difficulties would be with taking them and picking them up from school as they really need to stay at their own school instead of being moved to mine as that stability is going to be a huge support for them at this time. Some calls need to be made to see if it will be possible I guess.

I think I didn't realise the degree of difficulty with some situations, well I did but thought it would all be ok. And if I take them for a trial period is that fair on the children to be shipped around etc. And they will be in foster care for the rest of their childhood...which is a long time. And the Department for child protection do tell you to say no if you think it's really not going to work out for you and your family.

But if it works out it could be the best thing I've ever done.

Come on magic future forseeing powers. It's time to start working....